STS training pictures

"Our Group" minus a few that left early

Amy and Tricia Heflin

Our Hostesses

My New Friends from Louisiana

Pat Layton Teaching

Me and Pat

Surrendering the Secret Leader Certification Training


What an amazing weekend this was. I am sorry it has been forever since I posted.

The weekend that Pat Layton was in Kirbyville Texas will be one I will never forget. The training day went well. All the ladies enjoyed their selves and lots of friends were made. We had 3 states represented and CPCs, churches, ministries and counselors in attendance.

Each lady there had a story to tell of why God wanted her there. I believe we were about 1/2 and 1/2 of post abortive/non post abortive.

We even had a mother/daughter team there. The mom is post abortive and because of the destructive lifestyle, God has put a calling on the daughter, who isn't post abortive, to start a ministry. Also her mom was in the first post abortive healing group she lead.

Oh the stories went around the table, It took us just over an hour, and none of us had a dry eye.

It was an amazing day!

hugs to ya!

I am so excited that this weekend is finally here. It has been in the making (for me) for 9 months, for God, since the beginning of time.

I am so ready to put my arms around this lady and hug her precious neck, again!

Pat Layton is coming to Texas.

My church Trout Creek Baptist is the hosting church for her

Surrendering the Secret Leadering Certification Training.

She will also be in our services on Sunday morning at 10:30 giving her awesome, powerful testimony of God's redeeming Love.

It will change your life.

Join us please.

almost here......

Well I think I am all geared up for this weekend. God has been so faithful.
2 1/2 weeks ago there were only 4 women signed up for the Surrendering the Secret leader certification training. I was fretting it but Pat Layton, in her Godly wisdom, told me God would provide. He is so faithful. (did i already say that?) There are 21 women attending, not including myself, the training on Sat. From 3 states, coming from churches, crisis pregnancy centers, post abortion ministries, and 3 Christian Counselors. I am so excited to finally meet the women I have been praying for all these months. God is going to bless our socks off at the training. Praying for the sweetest spirit that day.
Please Pray for Pat as she will also be speaking to our church in Sunday morning services. Lots of prayer has gone into this weekend. I know God is going to open doors, heal hearts, mend marriages, and save souls this weekend. To God Be the Glory!

Will the next Trainee please stand-up?

Trout Creek Baptist Church will host a one day

“Leader Certification Training” for Surrendering the Secret.

It will feature Pat Layton, author of Surrendering the Secret,

founder of A Women’s Place in Tampa, Florida.

Surrendering the Secret is a study published by LifeWay, designed to bring healing to women

who have abortion in their past. Although abortion is not a secret anymore and is freely

discussed in today’s society, many women still do not feel comfortable talking about their painful

experiences. In fact, there are millions of women who continue to hold this secret deep inside

and are suffering severe consequences. Surrendering the Secret will allow these women who

need help to connect with women who can help them.

Training will be held at:

Trout Creek Baptist Church, Kirbyville, Texas

Saturday, September 26, 2009

from 9 am to 4 pm

(Lunch will be provided.)

Register Online: http://www.surrenderingthesecret.com/

(Deadline for registration is September 12, 2009, 14 days prior to the event)

For coordinating, planning or directions contact:
Amy Sauls, founder of Finding Freedom Ministry at 409-423-0825

Stacy Spence, TCBC Women’s Ministry Director, at 409-656-4031
Certification will be given to those who complete the training.

Please join us on this journey to healing and restoration!

She Listens and Is Humbled!

Jennifer Rothschild

Lysa TerKeurst

Proverbs 31 Ministry Team

Stacy and Deb

Me and Heather

I have decided that I will attend She Speaks every year God allows me too.

I have never been to a conference that met so many needs of the women attending. God showed up in a mighty way.... Lives were changed, hearts softened, dreams confirmed and life long friends were made! For me it was confirmation, a revelation, and answered promises. God brought me 945 miles to meet a lady from Houston named Heather who is walking in my shoes.... It is an answered prayer. Gods Grace is So good.

I am learning to love on and depend on my Jesus way more than I have been...... and that is what filled my heart at She Speaks

I fight like a girl, how about you?

My name is Amy Sauls and I am a post-abortive woman.

I faced an unplanned pregnancy at the age of 16 that resulted in abortion. The shame and guilt of ending the life of my unborn child overwhelmed me. Although I became a Christian when I was 22, I still felt as though the sin of my abortion could never be forgiven. For 15 years I lived in shame and secrecy, guilt overflowing into every area of my life.
While attending a retreat with my church in October of 2006, I realized that through Jesus’ death on the cross, I was truly forgiven of all my sins, including my abortion. The Lord Jesus Christ was my only source of healing and freedom. And finally, after many years of heartbreak, I was able to experience true freedom in Christ.
In October of 2008, after God dealt with my heart for 2 years, I surrendered to His call into post-abortion ministry. Since that time, God has consistently provided opportunities for this ministry to grow and opened doors for me to speak to the women and youth of my community.
Then in January of 2009, I attended a training conference for Surrendering the Secret, by Pat Layton. This bible study is a wonderful tool for healing the heartbreak of abortion.
In John 4:35, we are told to open our eyes and look at the fields, for they are ripe for harvest. There are millions of women suffering the severe consequences of abortion and are in need of healing that only Christ can give them. Revelation 12:11 tells us, “They overcame him [the enemy] by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony.” These women need to know that they are not alone in this battle. They need to hear what Christ has done in our lives and that He can do the same for them.

Will you join us in the fight towards healing and restoration for Men and Women all over the World?

Pat Layton and her team will be in Kirbyville Texas at my church Trout Creek Baptist on Saturday, September 26, offering Leader Certification Training. You may register HERE.

WIN A FREE STS Certification Training Opportunity complete with airfare.
Simply Join our Surrendering The Secret Group on Facebook and encourage others to join around the WORLD to be entered in our drawing!!

OR

How would you like to win a complete "Surrendering the Secret" Bible Study/DVD Kit for your church, local pregnancy center or counseling office?

Step on over to Pat's blog for a chance to win.

*if you post on your website, blog, facebook or email, please link back to me for my chance at winning too, cause Pat is cool like that!*

Cling to His Promises

My New CLING TO HIS PROMISES Scripture........ From the Message:

Psalm 91:14-16 (The Message)

14-16 "If you'll hold on to me for dear life," says God,

"I'll get you out of any trouble.

I'll give you the best of care

if you'll only get to know and trust me.

Call me and I'll answer, be at your side in bad times;

I'll rescue you, then throw you a party.

I'll give you a long life,

give you a long drink of salvation!"

Satan's Meeting

SATAN'S MEETING: (Read even if you're busy)

Satan called a worldwide convention of demons.

In his opening address he said, "We can't keep Christians from going to church."

"We can't keep them from reading their Bibles and knowing the truth."

"We can't even keep them from forming an intimate relationship with their Savior."

"Once they gain that connection with Jesus, our power over them is broken."

"So let them go to their churches; let them have their covered dish dinners, BUT steal their time, so they don't have time to develop a relationship with Jesus Christ.."

"This is what I want you to do," said the devil:

"Distract them from gaining hold of their Savior and maintaining that vital connection throughout their day!"

"How shall we do this?" his demons shouted.

"Keep them busy in the non-essentials of life and invent innumerable schemes to occupy their minds," he answered.

"Tempt them to spend, spend, spend, and borrow, borrow, borrow."

"Persuade the wives to go to work for long hours and the husbands to work 6-7 days each week, 10-12 hours a day, so they can afford their empty lifestyles."

"Keep them from spending time with their children."

"As their families fragment, soon, their homes will offer no escape from the pressures of work!"

"Over-stimulate their minds so that they cannot hear that still, small voice."

"Entice them to play the radio or CD player whenever they drive." To keep the TV, VCR, CDs, PDAs and their PCs going constantly in their home and see to it that every store and restaurant in the world plays non-biblical music constantly.."

"This will jam their minds and break that union with Christ."

"Fill the coffee tables with magazines and newspapers."

"Pound their minds with the news 24 hours a day."

"Invade their driving moments with billboards and cell phones."

"Flood their mailboxes with junk mail, mail order catalogs, sweepstakes, and every kind of newsletter and promotional offering free products, services and false hopes.."

"Keep skinny, beautiful models on the magazines and TV so their husbands will believe that outward beauty is what's important, and they'll become dissatisfied with their wives. "

"Keep the wives too tired to love their husbands at night."

"Give them headaches too! "

"If they don't give their husbands the love they need, they will begin to look elsewhere."

"That will fragment their families quickly!"

"Give them Santa Claus to distract them from teaching their children the real meaning of Christmas."

"Give them an Easter bunny so they won't talk about His resurrection and power over sin and death."

"Even in their recreation, let them be excessive."

"Have them return from their recreation exhausted."

"Keep them too busy to go out in nature and reflect on God's creation. Send them to amusement parks, sporting events, plays, concerts, and movies instead."

"Keep them busy, busy, busy!"

"And when they meet for spiritual fellowship, involve them in gossip and small talk so that they leave with troubled consciences."

"Crowd their lives with so many good causes they have no time to seek power from Jesus."

"Soon they will be working in their own strength, sacrificing their health and family for the good of the cause."

"It will work!"

"It will work!"

It was quite a plan!

The demons went eagerly to their assignments causing Christians everywhere to get busier and more rushed, going here and there.

Having little time for their God or their families.

Having no time to tell others about the power of Jesus to change lives…

I guess the question is, has the devil been successful in his schemes?

You be the judge!!!!!

Does "BUSY" mean: B-eing U-nder S-atan's Y-oke?

What the news didn't share with you.....

March 24, 2009
Abortion chain owner's family died in MT

cemetary plane crash - near tomb of the unborn.

This was taken from Jill Stanek's blog.

From Christian Newswire this afternoon, by pro-life activist and writer Gingi Edmonds:
Some of you may have seen the major news story of the private plane that crashed into a Montana cemetery, killing 7 children and 7 adults.
But what the news sources fail to mention is... the [cemetery] contains... the Tomb of the Unborn... erected as a dedication to all babies who have died because of abortion.
What else is the mainstream news not telling you? The family who died in the crash near the location of the abortion victim's memorial, is the family of Irving 'Bud' Feldkamp, owner of the largest for-profit abortion chain in the nation....
Family Planning Associates was purchased 4 years ago by... Feldkamp... owner of Allcare and Hospitality Dental Associates and CEO of Glen Helen Raceway Park in San Bernardino. The 17 CA Family Planning clinics perform more abortions in the state than any other abortion provider - Planned Parenthood included - and they perform abortions through the first 5 months of pregnancy.
Although Feldkamp is not an abortionist, he reaps profits of blood money from the tens of thousands of babies that are killed through abortions performed every year at the clinics he owns. His business in the abortion industry was what enabled him to afford the private plane that was carrying his family to their week-long vacation at The Yellowstone Club, a millionaires-only ski resort.
The plane went down on Sunday, killing 2 of Feldkamp's daughters, 2 sons-in-law and 5 grandchildren along with the pilot and 4 family friends....
The cause of the crash is a mystery. The pilot, who was a former military flier who logged over 2k miles, gave no indication to air traffic controllers that the aircraft was experiencing difficulty when he asked to divert to an airport in Butte. Witnesses report that the plane suddenly nosedived toward the ground with no apparent signs of a struggle. There was neither a cockpit voice recorder nor a flight data recorder onboard, and no radar clues into the plane's final moments because the Butte airport is not equipped with a radar facility. Some speculate that the crash was due to ice on the wings, but this particular plane model has been tested for icy weather and experts have stated that ice being the cause is unlikely.
In my time working for Survivors of the Abortion Holocaust, I helped organize and conduct a weekly campaign where youth activists stood outside of Feldkamp's mini-mansion in Redlands holding fetal development signs and raising community awareness regarding Feldkamp's dealings in child murder for profit. Every Thursday afternoon we called upon Bud and his wife Pam to repent, seek God's blessing and separate themselves from the practice of child killing.
We warned him, for his children's sake, to wash his hands of the innocent blood he assisted in spilling because, as Scripture warns, if "you did not hate bloodshed, bloodshed will pursue you." (Ezekiel 35:6)
A news source states that Bud Feldkamp visited the site of the crash with his wife and their 2 surviving children on Monday. As they stood near the twisted and charred debris talking with investigators, light snow fell on the tarps that covered the remains of their children.
I don't want to turn this tragic event into some creepy spiritual "I told you so" moment, but I think of the time spent outside of Feldkamp's - Pam Feldkamp laughing at the fetal development signs, Bud Feldkamp trying not to make eye contact as he got into his car with a small child in tow - and I think of the haunting words, "Think of your children." I wonder if those words were haunting Feldkamp as well as he stood in the snow among the remains of loved ones, just feet from the Tomb of the Unborn?
I only hope and pray that in the face of this tragedy, Feldkamp recognizes his need for repentance and reformation. I pray that God will use this unfortunate catastrophe to soften the hearts of Bud and Pam and that they will draw close to the Lord and wash their hands of the blood of thousands of innocent children, each as precious and irreplaceable as their own.
"I have set before you life and death, the blessing and the curse. Choose life, then." (Deut. 30:19)
This is hard to think about. Gingi's right. No MSM report included that particular business detail. An Associated Press article did include this, however:
Feldkamp's family has gone through tragedy before. Two years ago, his 10-month-old grandson, Chase, died after he was found to have slipped between a mattress and the edge of a bed during a nap. The child was taken to a hospital and was eventually taken off life support.

[HT: Fran Eaton at IL Review]'

Joy of the Lord

Joy of the Lord Women's Conference went great. God was there and so were about 200 ladies. It was amazing to be apart of such a great group of God Loving Women.

God worked in the hearts of many women yesterday. There were many broken women looking for the Joy of the Lord and Praise God many of them found it. I know of 1 soul that was saved yesterday and she just happened to be from my church. So it was a joyful morning today in our services when she announced it to her church family.

I gave my testimony about abortion and how God has healed me and set me free from the secrecy I kept for over 15 years. When I was done all the women were on their feet clapping and it was pretty overwhelming for me.

Here are some pictures.

My Ministry Table


My Sister Colleen and I

My #1 Prayer Warrior, Stacy and I

Ministry Flyers

Some Women from my Church

That is all the pictures that Blogger will let me put up for now.

Thank you for all of you prayed for me yesterday. God gave me peace.

Prayer and Praise

This evening I will head over to the local retreat camp for a women's prayer retreat with my SIL and her sister. A bittersweet time with my Lord. A much needed time of praise, and prayer. These last few weeks have been full of ministry busyness. Aside from my daily outside the home job, and my family I have been very busy getting ready for my first ever Conference where I will a guest speaker. That takes way more preparation than I realized. Not to mention speaking to our Celebrate Recovery Group at our Church right in the middle of it.

God has been preparing me for this next weeks conference for the last 4 weeks since I was invited. And my life has become a play ground for the enemy. He has tried to attack me every way he can. But I have stayed in Prayer, Worship and in the Word of God to find my strength to fight through this.

Other Big News in my life is that we have finally set a date for Pat Layton author of Surrendering The Secret to come to our Church for a Training Session and to give her testimony at our Church on Sunday. This is so awesome because we are centrally located in East Texas and close enough to Louisiana that this will cover a huge area. She has penciled us in on her calender for Sept. 26 and 27. We are so excited to see what God will do and the women that will surrender to this ministry.
Not much time left I have to pack my bags.

Patiences Please,

God is doing some amazing things right now. I have 2 more speaking arrangements scheduled. Gesh...... I don't like that part of ministry. I am really freaked out about getting infront of people to talk. but put me in the center of the women I could do it all day long.
I spoke to the youth group a couple of weeks ago and I survived it, so I am sure to survive the women groups right?
In 2 weeks I will be going to our Celebrate Recovery group and give testimony, The conference on Mar 7, and Our Women's Fellowship on April 17.
God is so up to something BIG....... the suspense kills me........ I want to see the big painted picture. Patience, I think He is teaching me a little of that through all of this too.

God Speaks

A real quick recap of my 4 days with an amazing group of ladies.
We headed out on Friday morning to New Bruensfel, Tx for a leadership conference and Surrendering the Secret training. It was a quick trip and not a quite moment it the car. That evening kicked off the conference. The Keynote speaker was Kelly Minter and we had an amazing time of worship. God was speaking to me from the beginning.
I went there for some serious time with the Lord and that is exactly what I did. He confirmed and loved on me through worship, scriptures, and testimony all weekend.
I have never been this close with the Lord, ever! It was truly amazing. By Saturday afternoon I was emotionally drained.
The conference was all day Saturday and Pat Layton was the Keynote speaker. She did a great job. This women Loves God and Women. And she is quit funny.
I got a chance to me her in person and get her autograph. As did I Kelly Minters too.
That evening back at our hotel, we spent some serious time with the Lord. We recapped the weekend, journaled about it, and had an amazing prayer time. We were all 4 down on our knees or laying flat on our faces before our Lord, just humbling ourselves before Him. We literally poured ourselves out to Him.
Sunday was a day of rest for us. We went to a near by town and did a little shopping and lurking around. We had a fabulous lunch on the Gruene River at the Gruene River Grill.
That evening we attended Church Services at Oakwood Baptist where the Surrendering the Secret training was held on Monday. WOW!!!!! it was unbelievable. God was there. The Holy Spirit was so thick in the room, you could feel it...... God was speaking to me so much that evening, I told one of the ladies I was with that if He spoke any louder He would be YELLING in my ear. I just can't explain it.....
Monday was our training day. And boy did the enemy have some tricks up his sleeve.... Nothing is too big for God though.
Pat used my computer for her power point presentation. We had a good lunch and the women there were so sweet. There were about 47 of us in the session. We took pictures together and discussed ideas.
Before going I had been praying for direction on getting into our area churches with the material for post abortive women to begin healing. It has been in Crisis Pregnancy Centers for years, but it is just now coming into the church and only few.
As we left that afternoon to head back home, not even 5 minutes into the ride home I got a phone call from an area church about a Women's Conference coming up in March. They have had their schedule worked out with the exception of a 35 min time slot before the breakout sessions. The director of the women's ministry felt the Lord telling her that should be for the Post Abortion Ministry.
She asked ME to be the speaker for this event. Hello????? Me, my first time to speak in front of a big crowd was this past week with our youth group...... which by the way went great.
I was just humble by what the Lord was doing and so quickly.
He had shown me over and over all weekend that The Harvest is Ripe...... He was not going to prepare me then send me out, He is going to prepare me along the journey. I don't have to go knocking on the Churches doors He is opening them up for me.
God is so good and this ministry is needed so badly.

One Amazing Weekend

I had a wonderful 4 days in God's presence. It was more than amazing and i don't have a lot of time to blog about it. I would like to post some pictures though.

Knowing what is ahead

It has been a very busy year for my family. I am glad to see it come to an end and another great year ahead. God has alot planned for me next year and I am ready to see what all he has in store for me and our new ministry. I am excited to say I know what His plans are but I still don't know what all will be in store. At the end of Jan. myself and possibly 7 other ladies from my church will be attending this Conference and we can't wait for it to get here. Some of us will also be staying through till Monday for the Surrendering The Secret Training Session.

OK for me you are talking about 4 days away from work, busyness and my family (which isn't a bad thing, every mom needs a break Right?), and being with some ladies I love, fellowshiping, worshipping and learning all together....... I am so ready I could just scream!
What I am really excited about is I am following God's call. He has been calling me to this ministry for over 2 years and I am so happy and excited to finally be doing what he told me long ago to do.
I would love to ask all of you to please be praying for our trip, the conference and our families we will leave here. God's will be done.........
and also here coming up soon I will be giving my testimony to our youth group which most of them I know and have entertained in my home. We are talking close to 100 teens here. I know God is calling me to do this but I am starting to get a little nervous.