My Chains are gone!

September 30, 2000 changed my life forever. That was the worse day of my life. My mother was coming to my house to go to Dustin’s peewee football game with us. However, she never made it to my house. She made the 45 minute drive to my road, but that was where her life ended. As she was stopped on the two lane highway waiting to turn on to my road, a 18 year old young man was in a hurry to work and recklessly slammed in to the back of her car going at least 70 mph. My mom never knew what hit her. She died instantly right there in her car by herself.
For the next 3 years I would fine myself spiraled down so far into depression. I had taken every antidepressant on the market, talk with therapist, psychologist but it was the Lord that would deliver me.
Chris told me that he wanted another child. He was so desperate to save me from depression that he thought having another baby would help me to be freed. With in the next 2 months I was pregnant. With raging hormones and changes in my body, I began to come out of depression. Lane Christopher was born June 3, 2003.
After he was born, Chris opened up to me and told me what his intensions were for having another child. I was absolutely furious with him. I took it, as he wanted Lane to replace my mother. However, it was not until September of 2006 that God showed me that it was His love to break my chains of depression. Chris and others prayed for me to get better. A child is a gift from God and it was that love he shared with me that freed me.
After the Lord had given me that, I was able to forgive Chris. Besides it was not him to begin with, it was God working through him. Praise God I have been out of that pit of depression ever since. My relationship with him is stronger than it ever has been. And through the gift of love to have another child I now have another piece of my mom in my family. Thank you Jesus, I praise you for what you have done in my life.