The Silent Scream

THE SILENT SCREAM
written by Letha Powell
September 8,2000

We are living in the shadow
O the silent scream.
Oh God help us stop the madness
of this evil scheme.
Help young mothers and young fathers
learn to love their own offspring.
To a million unborn infants
Sacrificed like throw aways,
It matters not the briefness
Of their lives in weeks or days.
They protest with strength and vigor
As pain and death invade their space.
Have you watched them kick their tiny legs
Then never move again?
Have you seen their tiny faces
As they cry out in their pain?
Oh, if you have ears to listen
Won't you hear their silent scream?
We've become a shameful nation
Innocent blood flows in our land.
We've sacrificed our unborn infants
Never mindful of God's plan.
How long, oh God of mercy
Will you stay your mighty hand?
The time has come for those to speak
Whose voices can be heard.
It's time for us who value life
To hear and do God's Word.
We must repent and take out stand,
The Word of God our sword.
Deliver us, O Lord, from darkness.
We have gone so far astray.
Set our feet on holy ground, Lord,
Help us walk your holy way.
Give us wisdom, give us strength
To stop the silent scream, we pray.

Don't give up

Never, ever give up on God....... He hears your prayers. I have prayed for my brothers salvation for a very long time. My brother that is 28 years old, a drug addict and now in jail from drug charges, and He has excepted Christ as his Savior. Praise the Lord, thank you Jesus for answering our prayers. He says better late than never, and I say all in God's time. Thank you to any of you that have ever prayed for him. Although this is just the beginning of a tough time for him, it eases my mind knowing he is in jail, safe and sober. Please pray for him his name is Adam.

He's MIA and I'm Numb

In blogging about addiction I have mentioned by brother Adam before. I heard from my sister last night, she brought me some "old" news. I say old because this is not the first go around. My brother is a drug addicted and has been his whole adult life and majority of his teen years.

I believe my brother was about 13 the first time I caught him smoking weed. I am assuming that he had been doing it well before the night I caught him. I know that he had already been drinking by then so there is no telling what else he had tried by that age. When he was around 16-17 he had admitted to doing alot of other drugs to me. Hard stuff.
After my parents divorce my mother had to send him to live with my dad in Houston. She had had enough of the drugs, lies, stealing and the cracked out friends that come along with that lifestyle. Not too long after that my mom was killed in a car accident, and he never made amens with her. That led him on a downward spiral of drug use and depression. Several years later he hit bottom and checked himself into rehab for cocaine use. He stayed there for 90 days and cleaned up. I was really proud of him. Keeping him from moving back to Houston I offered for him to move in with my family and gave him a job with our company. That was not long lived and I had to ask him to leave. He then went to my sisters. After several months of being there, he started getting back to his old ways again. Then it was on to a friends and then another....... Finally ending back up in Houston with my dad. Fast forward a couple of years. He has been doing well these past several months. Got into Culinary School in Jan. Doing great and loving it. Up until recently that is. Not sure what happened but a couple of weeks ago dad found Meth in the apt. and noticed that he was high. He has since been MIA for over a week, took the suburban, withdrew $600 from dad's checking acct. and has no cell phone on him.
My dad is beside himself, my sister is overly concerned, and I am just numb. I guess I feel this way because it has been going on for too long. The endless phone calls of what he has gotten into now; no job, no money, drugs, jail, stealing and the list goes on. He knows no other life style. Praise God he doesn't have a wife or child to take care of . He couldn't do it. He can't even take care of himself. He has never had too. He has been bailed out of everything "BAD" situation he has ever gotten himself into. All because of the guilt or pity he throws out to anyone that will fall for it.
Been there, fell for it and got screwed over. I have had my share days of worrying myself sick, crying myself to sleep and rubbing my knees raw in prayer for him. I just cant handle it this time. I am just now recovering from what I went through with my sister last year. Finding out that she was also an addict (prescription drugs) about did me in........
I use to have a hard time dealing with the fact that my family is full of addicts. I have brought it up in prayer so many times, read books and the bible on it. I am learning to cope with it. It is not something that I will ever truly understand. The drug/alcohol part of it anyway. There are addictions to all sorts of things and I am guilty of plenty. Just not ones that are mind altering so to speak. But I have something that is way more satisfying, Jesus Christ. He is the only one who can fill that empty hole in our heart. We could waste years trying to fill it with things, people, etc. But he is the only one that will fit in it.
I thank God that I am not following in my family foot steps and that I am not an addict of drug/alcohol. I am Saved by grace through faith and it is Christ that I put my trust into everyday to guard me from the tricks that Satan pulls on you to go out and get high! I pray that I will be able to break this spiritual curse that has been going on for years in my family. I also pray for their chains of bondage be broken. For them to turn their addictions over to Christ and ask for forgiveness, and Except Him in Salvation.

Missing Pages

I bought this CD when I found out that Colleen, my sister, was addicted to Prescription Drugs. I have hope for my family members that suffer with addiction. I pray continually for all of them, but I also pray for the generational curse stop with me.
Here are the words:
Missing Pages By: Seventh Day Slumber
On the outside all we see is clay
That hides the perfect light
But no one really knows the pain inside
I understand how much it hurts
To be the one who’s never seen
The missing pages in a magazine
No one knows you anymore
You’re lost inside the walls you’ve built
No one knows you anymore
A prison deep within your soul
There is One who sees it all
He’ll give you life you’ve never dreamed
He can see the pain underneath your skin
It’s hard to see you fading
Nothing that I do can bring you back
I pray to God that you don’t fade away
Your addiction is a symptom of a lost and dying soul
Without Jesus there’s no hope at all
There’s so much more this is not the end
It’s all in your hands don’t throw it away
A beautiful life with so much to give
The image of God underneath your skin

The beauty of God underneath your skin (3x)

Now the video is a little different than I expected but it is also a fact of life and Jesus loves them too......
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ccmT1jBwb5U

How well do you know me?

Have you ever felt like you have known someone when in fact you really haven't known "THEM"?

I am the oldest of 3 children. Myself, my sister (4 yrs. younger), then my brother at (6 yrs younger). My sister and I have had a pretty close relationship growing up. You know there was your typical sibling rivalry, but for the most part we have been best friends. After our parents separated we became very close and more so after our mom was killed in a car accident 7 years ago. There is a family history of addiction in our family. Drugs and Alcohol have been a way of life for my dad and my brother. So much that I don't really expect anything different from either of them. But when I found out that my sister was addicted and abusing Prescription Drugs, it really did a number on me. I just couldn't understand it.
She had a back/hip injury when she was a teen and it has just progressed over the years.
Now after drugs have just tore up her family and she is facing possible jail time she is finally coming clean with things. I learned last month that she has actually been addicted for about 8 years. Come on, I only knew about the last 2 years or so. That really surprised me.

Today she has been clean for a few months and she is in surgery right now to correct her back problem. I am glad that she is having it done, I just pray that it is successful and she can live pain free. She was in high spirits about having it done. She is just looking forward to that day that she can be free of daily pain. Will she even know how to live her daily life as she knows it. She has been in pain for so long that ever thing she is use too will be different.

Our relationship has really been effected by this and needs alot of mending. I pray that now we can work on our friendship. I am ready to start our new life together too.

Randomly Picked

So our school district is going to start doing Drug/Alcohol testing for 7-12th graders who are basically in any extra-curricular activities (Band, sports, cheer leading, etc. ) and also if you drive your own vehicle to and from school. It will be done to all students (in that group) at the beginning of the Year and random through out the year. I personally think it is a great idea. Parents of students who won't be in the random pick can Opt them in to it. Both my older kids are at the age and are eligible for testing. Heck they even think it is a great idea. Maybe it will get some drug and users out of the schools. Drugs in the schools is awful. Pills, weed, meth, coke, it is everywhere. I pray for my kids to steer from addiction all the time. The Temptations, the pressures........ and Sex is just as bad. It is like a sport to them. Almost a competition. How many partners in a short amount of time with what ever drugs and liquor.... It is just crazy. I think about all the things I have been through and there is no way I could have dealt with all these pressures. It scares me when I think about what I was doing at their age and it isn't a drop in the bucket with what some kids around here are doing.... We are open and honest with our kids and they have seen first hand the result of drug and/or alcohol addiction. Heck, I am even open with them that I was a teenage mom. But I also share the fact that I am not a good example of how the majority turn out. The lord has truly blessed me.